A pair of Shoes

What a simple dream I had last night and what deep thoughts I had about it today... A dream was meaningless, but still typical for a girl. Just imagine, I am allowed to take as much clothes for free as I can when I am walking in the shopping centre, but there is only one pair of shoes that I can take. Every time I enter a shop, my friends next to me are changing. But they are all my new friends from Vilnius. I have taken so many clothes, but I haven‘t taken any shoes. I woke up this morning and thought. Maybe there is a sign hidden in it? I used to dream my old friends as well, but somehow they have disappeared now. And I don‘t like shopping at all. It means that I am doing the things I don‘t like to do. So what‘s happened? I kept thinking about those shoes I didn‘t choose in my dream and remembered some words in Eminem‘s song:

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others' minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others' eyes...

But the funniest thing is that I got into my own mind, I guess. I looked at myself in a dream. At somebody I am becoming and what I am forgetting. And to resume all the mess I have just said, I decided. I have so many friends, like I got so many clothes in my dream.  And I was just picking and picking them, forgetting about the shoes. The shoes I am wearing every day in all kind of ways in my life. So, a pair of shoes symbolised my two best friends from my hometown. There are two of them. Both are the same important. Like a pair of shoes. It is impossible to wear only one of them. I was choosing clothes, taking them, changing and choosing again. But I didn‘t choose any new shoes. I didn‘t change my best friends.  And even if I forgot them for a while, maybe it is a sign that I have to call them and to say „I miss you“. I want you to come back to my dreams, because you walked with me in the most difficult ways of my life when the other shapes were simply changing.